August 2011
1 post
July 2011
1 post
My medical issues are making it hard for me to...
Tell me about it.
Even klonopin can’t fix that shit.
I wish for the day when everything is normal. Wonderful. Pretty. Less financially stressful and less lonely even when everyone is around me.
I wish for a day that never existed, and probably won’t ever.
May 2011
1 post
March 2011
1 post
February 2011
1 post
“I am against religion because it teaches us to be satisfied with not...”
– Richard Dawkins
January 2011
3 posts
i just want to go to Paris... and be by myself and...
:-(
dear my frustrated mind-fucked overly worked can't...
I’m still nothing.
i’m not happy at all. I can write and read all day now and I’m still not happy. I have two people that love me immensely, still not happy. Very few friends, very pretty home. Lots of gorgeous wants. All needs met. Healthy family members— excluding myself, of course. Still in suffering. Still venting. Still feel like disappearing to some place far...
November 2010
1 post
HAVE YOU LOST YOUR MIND? TELL ME WHEN YOU THINK WE...
ah well. Ye. you’ve outdone yourself. love everything…
whyever does this remind me of my x fiance.
I’ll probably love that man forever. Even though he married someone else.
October 2010
2 posts
17184.) I thought this would work. But I'm soon...
September 2010
2 posts
Dear diary... dear God,
Diary. God?
Please just give me a job I love.
July 2010
1 post
April 2010
3 posts
1 tag
dear my fuckin diary,
shit always hits the fan. or hits the floor i should say in my case… now, since he’s following my diary i won’t be able to post anything i can’t take the chance that he’ll read… nonetheless…
I’m so tired. I’m so so tired. i wish i could elaborate more. there’s sooooo much i have to tell you, but it’s not time yet… soon. ok?
March 2010
2 posts
don’t say i told you so and it’s sort of over. his bitchassness about how it’s all happening is furthermore pushing me away.
o and let’s not forget the fact that he snoops in all of my private blogs and personal shit. that totally helps his fucking case. how did the perfect person turn loving me too much into a fucking disaster?
February 2010
4 posts
dear diary,
WHY. FUCKING. ME?
“You have still grown as a person because of this relationship, and you now have...”
– kat o’leary
snickerdoodle
January 2010
12 posts
fuck this shit!!!!
man fuck him… the fact that he walked out further confirms his insecurities
he’s so worried about things i’ll do he can’t enjoy loving me
he stalks me like my ex!!!
i’m done. no more. he’s the one making me most sick.
“Human beings are funny. They long to be with the person they love but refuse to...”
– Sigmund Freud
quotewhore
dear my fuckin...
i had an attack. he held me through the whole thing. apparently it was bad and very scary and he says the medicine takes a while to work.
then, i don’t remember it. i should probably marry this fool. i push him away so much. he has so much patience.
i’m home sick again today. the side effects won’t quit.
dear nothing is more important than your health,...
i’m sicker than i’m letting the closest people to me know. and the doctors aren’t exactly sure what’s wrong or if it can be fixed. i have to go to work although work is the last thing i could care about in my whole life right now… problem is the side effects for the medicine they’re giving me for what they don’t know they’re treating…...
dear my fuckin diary,
i have chosen…
no one… and shut everyone out. so i’m pretty much prolly gonna call it quits with him if there aren’t any big changes… no i don’t wanna talk about it yet.
wayyy too much going on.
dear diary,
i’m so so confused.
actually make that three people.
DEAR MY FUCKIN DIARY,
the first man i ever truly loved i saw again two weeks ago. exchanged numbers went to eat. like the time really didn’t pass at ALL. seriously. A million things are going through my mind. I think that the three people that are most important to me still being in my life makes me go nuckin futs.
i’ve had three very serious relationships thus far and they are all...
I love my boyfriend but if he stands me up on new years he’s going to make me wish I’d been unfaithful. Yes I’m that vindictive.
December 2009
7 posts
3 tags
o, diary i'm in love with two people.
this shit blows. i don’t deserve this. i guess it just hit me. i’m not a cheater so i won’t. but i just hate this is happening. i love him more than the world… but my first love… just threw me for a big fuckin loop. lord have all kinds of mercy.
“so, i think i’m going to get fired. is it bad that i want to be fired now....”
I remember when I wasn't having sex,
i didn’t get urinary tract infections.
i secretly blame him. SO much. even though at times it’s great. i still get them. chronic, unbearably.
i think i may tell him that we cannot have sex anymore for a while… if at all, but that is so hard to do.
ok that’s all because i haven’t felt like writing in a diary in so long. and i still don’t feel like it now....
Dear my diary,
We got in a fight! I can’t wait to see who breaks first cuz I’m a stubbornmuufuckaa!
depressed.
November 2009
5 posts
dear my fuckin whoa,
i have truly never felt like this. And the improvements that I’ve told him about… he’s actually making them happen. Honestly no one has ever loved me as completely or as hardly.
P.S. I’ll give the details later.
I’m starting to think I’ve never loved this hard.
dear my fuckin diary,
ok so i guess i can say things have been going ok because i haven’t had anything pissy to tell you.
apparently strangers like really pissy shit about other strangers because random people keep following me. thanks strangers.
anywho. i guess the shit that that’s been bugging me as of lately is the way he follows me round lika puppy. WHY? i don’t know. never had any man do that...
“I’m killing the pain of your absence by shopping.”
– georgiegirlnyc
dear diary,
went through some tough things. picking my heart back up and putting it on a higher bookshelf this time. i’m in love. and there’s a good chance that can break me. but what if it doesn’t? what if everything’s turns out ok.
besides. if there were nothing worth fighting for it wouldn’t hurt to such great lengths now would it?
October 2009
11 posts
dear diary,
i think we might be breaking up. i don’t know i’m still getting it together. stay tuned.
"I'll try anything once, twice if I like it, three...
I agree with everything that is said here and have been in THIS exact situation so this is a no brainer reblog: thanks bblove for putting to words what i’ve felt in a few occasions. you’ll be ok; play raunchy music, go out a LOT, and exercise. xxooxx:
Let’s talk about how what I’m doing is fundamentally stupid. It’s not that it’s impossible, that it can’t be done, I’m just aware that...
dear my fuckin fuckin,
ok so raunchy alert raunchy alert:
this morning… yuckfuck yes everybody does it knows it, either loves it or hates it but yes. most (like 89% of women) sick duck. And there’s not to say that there’s anything wrong with sicking duck. Everything’s fine.
There’s just something particualrly touchy feely about the uncircumsized duck. UCK. I HATE HATE HATE IT.
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